There's a lot i've seen. a lot that's affected me, as a person. Things i've done, touched, thought, smelled... I've found that no one else saw it or felt what I felt. I've BLED tears because of your stupidity. I've lived things I can't explain. I BLED tears because of you THREW YOUR MAN KIND. Threw your stupidity, hate, lust, love, sound, touch, voice, laughter, crys, screams, lies, phone calls, im’s, walks, simple o’ talks. After every time I said sorry you still fucking
sat there like a complete IDIOT acting as if you had no idea what the hell I was talking out when your brought it all up AGAIN.

Being an only child only meant I had no shoulder to lean on. I had to come up on my on. Which also made me a slght mama's boy. Slightly. [Since Tommy moved on & out, i was the only one around]. Knowing I’ve seen more than a lot of people and knowing there are many many worse than me. Being human makes me see that i'm not perfect.

I AM JUST OF BEING BASED ON SOMETHING THAT HAPPEN MONTHS AGO. HALF A YEAR AGO. [checks the calendar] IN THE YEAR OF 2006 BETWEEN THE MONTHS OF.. NO THERE WAS PASCIFE MONTHS. IT BEGAN THE FUCKING DAY IT FUCKING HAPPEN. AND EVERYTHING FUCKING TIME YOU THERE AND YOU SHOVE IT IN MY FACE & PUT ME DOWN WHEN IT WAS A MISTAKE. I DIDN’T EVEN WANT IT WHEN I FIGHT BACK YOU ACT AS IF YOU HAVE NO EFFING IDEA OF WHAT THE LIVING CRAP I AM TALKING ABOUT. Thank you.

I found myself up at 4 this morning.. Looking at myself.. What a idiot you are.

FUCK THAT. If you can't treat me the way you ask me to treat YOU. If your going to fucking talk about shit that fucking happen eayr ago and then make a look like a dumbass. Fucking sit there and KNO why I am upset at you then

DON'T FUCKIN ASK

And then maybe we wouldn’t have that many problem. Maybe I wouldn’t to be typing you this right now. Maybe I wouldn’t get so damn angry act you & act like a complete idiot. And maybe you WOULDN’T HAVE TO BRING UP CRAP THAT FUCKING HAPPEN THAT I BEG FOR EFFING FORGIVENESS AND STILL SITS THERE LIKE I AM A GOD DAMN STUPID FUCKIN RETARD.



damn hypocrite.